Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Game of life and love

Life is a game!! sounds very philosphical doesnt it?? may be this sentence is so overly used, that it has lost its true meaning.
But, i recently refreshed my knowledge on game theory, an then as usual started thinking, whoever said this sentence must hv been a genius or drunk or both!!

In a pure game theory view, life IS a game, there are decisions to make, there are payoffs, lessons to be learnt, there are strategies to plan. But game theory can not explain the variation due to one factor "Human psyche", which is so wonderfully weird, so strange at times, so predictable sometimes. But no ones ever been able to explain it. The people who tried to explain human psyche met failure at the most gigantic hurdle we can say, that is LOVE!!

Is love really that hard to explain philosophically?? Pure love should not be difficult to explain at all, it pure illogic, pure tendency of doing things for one cause, pure madness, its not unpredictable...
However, a feeling which is not pure love, (it may be close to it) is much more difficult to explain.

In pure love, there is only one 'strategy'... that is to think about maximizing the other '"player's" payoffs... however, people lose in pure love, because its not an ESS !!!!!!!..

This is the most anti-romantic things anybody has said so far i guess... Hope my future girlfriend doesnt read this !!

Bye for now,, but i'll be back

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Zinda

It was a silent, lonely evening, i was sittin of the sofa reading stephen king, worrying about a million things. A whole lotta thoughts creating a whirlpool in my mind. I was merely skimmin the surface, but then i got more an more into it, an soon the stephen king book was forgotten.
I started thinking, y do i call myself a human being?? wot is there in me which is not there in a teacup, in a computer, or even in the robot sunny from "I, robot". As i was thinking, my confusion increased like anything, an it was a mess. Then i thought, i hv got better things to worry about, an started listenin to songs instead (Absurd flow of thoughts i think). An miraculously the first song i heard was Yeh hai meri kahani by strings. An as i went along the song, it turned out to clear my confusion somewot.

"Chubhte kaante yaadonke, daaman se chunta hun,
girti diwaaronke aanchal me zinda hun."

"Ek yaar hai dil ki dhadkan,
apne chahaat ka eilaan kiye jaati hai,
zindagi hai jo jiye jaati hai,
khoon ke ghoont piye jaati hai,
kaanto se khwab siye jaati hai"

Its not the fact that we can survive in any kind of conditions, it not the perseverence, its not the desire to live that makes us humans. It is not why we live in such conditions, it is how we live which makes us humans. We can make those conditions make us survive, where simply defying them is the road. Its not the ability to survive when theres a ray of hope, its the ability that, we can defy the ray of hope, and manufacture our own light to guide us.

Me thinks this is weird, but thts wot i thought.